Take 2 and Call Me in the Morning

The other day Christa took Caden to the water park with two of her friends. That night I noticed that she had severe sunburn on her shoulders and upper back. She didn’t think much about it until we came home from dinner with my parents and mentioned it to my mom. I love my mom, she is great, but some how she has this knack for knowing these “fix all remedies” I kind of think it’s a mother thing. Well, my mom’s suggestion was to put Colgate toothpaste on Christa’s sunburn and I think that was to make it better (honestly I didn’t hear the rest because I began to think about God and life).

The more I thought about these “fix all remedies” the more I began to wonder about God, life, and existence (which is something I think about a lot). Why can’t real life be like these “fix all remedies”? Why can’t we just take 2 pills and call the doctor in the morning to tell him that we are fine? Why is it so complicated? I mean growing up so many people made God, life, and existence seem so simple. I even believed that it was so simple that I began to doubt my own beliefs because I wasn’t “getting it.” But what if you never get it? What is “getting it” anyways? As I grew up it seemed that the more people I tried to talk to about God and life the more confused I became. It was as if they had a “5 step program” that if I followed it I would “get it.” I had (and still have) all these questions and people just wanted to put a simple answer on it. The older I got the more I realized that some things in life just don’t have answers. I learned that God is bigger than anyone thinks He is and that He is more involved then we want Him to be. I learned that tradition is a tool that the devil uses to miss lead people from knowing The Truth. I learned that life sucks, its hard, and bad things happen to people who don’t deserve them. I learned that innocent kids grow up in homes and situations that will scar them for the rest of their lives and yet they had no say in the matter. I learned that there are some easy answers but for the majority of life there are none or they are just really hard to find. I have also learned that it is ok to not have answers and that just because you don’t have answers your not messed up. I know there are a lot of people out there who feel the same way I do but are too afraid to admit it for whatever reason. We are all hurting inside, we all have huge questions that we want answers to but when we try to find them we just end up with more. I have learned that there is times when no Bible verse or song can make me feel any better. I also learned about this guy named Jesus who lived a long time ago and had a lot of bad stuff happen to Him, yet He still had so much love and compassion for the very people that were hurting Him. I learned that I found more answers to life the more I come to know this Man named Jesus. I learned (and am continuing to learn daily) that He might just be the reason behind life and existence. I have also learned that life was never meant to be done alone, but that we need each other. If you are reading this and can relate to what I am saying please know that I deeply care for you and pray that you too can find out who this Man is named Jesus. It won’t be easy and it will take all you have.

I know I am only 28 years old but I know two things: one, Truth is out there and two, life doesn’t have simple answers.